Yesterday I was reading Jen’s blog (AKA the Prior Fat Girl), and one of the comments on the post has had me thinking about it ever since. Dineen, from Eat Without Guilt said at the end of her comment, “Because life truly is too short to be worrying about something we do daily…eat.”
Can I get an AMEN?? How true is that? And yet I spend an inordinate amount of time thinking about food and worrying about what I eat. When I’m eating breakfast I’m often thinking about lunch, and when I’m eating lunch I’m thinking about dinner or what snack I will have before dinner. I know this isn’t normal, nor is it healthy, and yet as many others have written, I don’t know what a normal relationship with food looks like. I’ve never had one. I look at my husband, who has been the same, healthy weight for years, and I wish I could be like that. If it’s “time” for lunch, and he’s not hungry, guess what? He doesn’t eat anything! Me? If it’s pushing noon, I’m thinking or saying, “Oh my goodness, I need to eat lunch! It’s almost noon!” As if all of the food in the kitchen will expire at 12:01. On my post about the happy plate, Sweet Melissa commented about how, if something is really good, she will eat like she’ll never be able to have it again, and that’s exactly what I do. It’s as though I must eat everything I have RIGHT NOW because an evil food fairy will come and take it away if I don’t! I eat as though tomorrow it will be gone. I want to just eat a meal, enjoy the food but not obsess over it, stop when I’m full, and get on with the rest of life. Sometimes I feel like I will never get to that place, but I know in my heart that right now I’m not even actively TRYING to get to that place, so I need to put up a fight and not give in every time crazy urges to eat come over me.
If you have any tips for avoiding those munchy urges, please enlighten me!
In other, more shallow and superficial news, I’m experimenting with curly hair. Opinions? I’m not really sure what to do with my bangs when I wear my hair curly. (And I did take a shot where I’m not tilting my head at this odd angle, but it was harder to see the curl, hence this funky pose.)